my shepherd.

the LORD is my shepherd;
i shall not want.

this scripture has never meant more to me than it does right now. my Lord is not only protecting me, but also leading me through what is one of the most...different stages of my life. i've never been exactly where i am right now...afraid to spend any money because i don't know when i'll make any money or how much i'll make. it's very weird, and i know that i'm not the only person who is struggling with financial stuff right now, but this is the first time that i've ever felt overwhelmed by all of it.

so if you think of me at any time, please just say a prayer both that i would be encouraged and that God will really pull me through this. i know that he's the only way that i'll get anywhere.

currently watching: jeopardy!

lost...not the show.

lately i've been feeling more lost than liberated. i don't know what to do right now, where to look, where to go or anything. i mean, i'm planning on starting at ksu in the summer, but that's not certain. i don't have a job lined up, and i need some income. i just don't even know. and i know that God knows, and that is comforting, but it's still hard for me to have so many uncertainties flying around and feeling sort of...i don't know...alone in this. i don't mean to be down, but i'm just overwhelmed...by uncertainty, i guess.

currently watching: friends.

it's official.

i am going back to school :) i'm going to enroll in ksu to get my master of arts in teaching - english. i'm really excited about it too :) i'll have to take some pre-requisite classes, and then i'll start the program next spring. it's so weird to think about going back. and it's also weird, because i know that this experience as a student is going to be completely different than my berry experience. berry was where i grew up. where i learned how to make "adult" decisions...whatever those are. and i'm not saying that i have nothing left to learn, but it's just different. and i'm really excited about this new journey. it will definitely be an adventure, and i can't wait :)

currently watching: days of our lives...i know, i know.

LOST and The Office.

LOST: this show blow my mind. i get so excited when i can make a connection. i love when they answer questions, but i also love when they leave you hanging. that's why this show is so addicting. i didn't even watch it on television for the first three seasons. one of my professors and my old boss got me hooked on it. i can think of at least one day that i didn't even leave my room that summer because i couldn't tear myself away from the television. how ridiculous is that?! i just love it. whether it's trying to figure out whether or not i like richard alpert or who kate's going to end up with, i love the questions and answers...even if they do take a while :) awesome show with excellent writing, acting and direction.

The Office: i am in love with this show. this is another show that i didn't exactly watch all of on television...in fact, i watched an entire season in one night after i bought them. i started watching one day, and just fell in love. its clever writing never gets old and always catches me off guard. i mean i'm also a sucker for a good love story, so the whole pam and jim thing got me too, but i always laugh in this show. i just can't get over how funny it is.

well, i guess i just wanted to talk about my two favorite shows. if i had to pick to shows to keep watching, it would be these two. i mean, we all know that i'm addicted to several other tv shows, but these are the ones that i really can't live without.

currently watching: full house.

oh, change.

change is very interesting. i always try to think of it as a good thing. a new chance to start on a great, new adventure. right now, though. i'm not really sure of what that new adventure is for me. i've got a lot of things to think about and consider, but not a lot of time.

up until now, i realize that this blog post has been confusing, so i'll try to clarify. i will no longer be a full-time employee of premier firewood. it was a completely mutual thing based on a lot of other factors. i'll still be doing some things for them here and there, but that's it. that's why this new "beginning" has so many options.

should i go looking for another full-time job? i did that all summer, and to be honest, that was not exactly a high point in my life. i refuse to spend all day looking for jobs on the internet, so i guess i could just go out and look around...?

should i look at this as a "sign" that maybe i should go back to school? there is nothing holding me back other than the fact that i need some income.

i guess i'm just trying to figure everything out in one day, which isn't very helpful, but i do need to decide soon, unfortunately. any suggestions?

currently listening to: a fine frenzy.

ahhhhh.

i just want everyone to know that i LOVE the chrysler building. i love it. i think that it's probably weird to love a building, but i just think that art deco style stainless steel arches and gargoyles are beautiful...and i don't even usually like gargoyles. it's maybe my favorite building...it's at least top 5...right up there with the fox theatre. i sort of want to live there...haha :)

currently watching: regis & kelly...well, it's on in the background :)

my 25.

i decided to follow in jessica's footsteps and post my 25 random things on here as well :) also, i decided to add a 26th...


1. I could drink milk with almost any meal.
2. I sing a lot.
3. I am completely addicted to email. Seriously.
4. I don't like my food to touch...so I really love the plates with the little dividers.
5. I also eat my food once at a time...usually counterclockwise.
6. If I have macaroni and cheese on my plate, I always eat it first.
7. I am also shamelessly addicted to television. I love it.
8. I've been known to watch a movie twice in a row (only a few...)
9. Speaking of movies, I'm a little addicted to them as well...While You Were Sleeping, Two Weeks Notice, The Little Mermaid, Titanic, Star Wars, The Mighty Ducks, etc. I'll give almost any movie a try :)
10. I would eat a pound of white chocolate everyday if I wouldn't gain 500 pounds...I have a GIGANTIC sweet tooth.
11. I sleep with a teddy bear, and (obviously) I'm not afraid to admit it.
12. I'm not a cat person, but I do like my cat...who doesn't have a name.
13. I'm sort of obsessed with my dog. He's the best.
14. I wouldn't trade my friends or family for anything in the world...they have truly shaped who I am.
15. I love Jesus...and his grace.
16. I freak out if I can't find my phone after about two seconds.
17. That being said, I tend to leave my phone in lots of places...I left it on the top of my car once which didn't really end well.
18. Laugh all you want, but I love Titanic. I would watch it all the time, but I don't usually have three hours of free time.
19. I can't buy just one song...I have to have the whole album.
20. I think that The Office is one of the best shows on television. Ever.
21. I think the same about LOST.
22. I have huge tonsils...my dentists always talks about them.
23. I am a packrat...I just can't seem to get rid of anything that might possibly have some sentimental value.
24. I am addicted to caffeine...the way I look at it is that it could be worse. It could be crack.
25. I love MacBooks and think that no one should ever have to suffer through owning a PC.
26. I looooooooooooooooooove football. Love it.


currently watching: the superbowl...and then the office :) i love television.