yikes.

so, my brother is graduating from high school today. this is a weird feeling.

currently listening to: the whir of my fan mixed with the sound of a leaf blower...yes.

LOST.

i am so so so excited about the LOST season finale tonight. season finales are always bittersweet, because they are usually AWESOME, but then you have to wait forever for the next season to start. i don't know what i'm going to do now that all my shows are ending. not watching american idol on tuesday and wednesday was weird. so, i'm watching jeopardy right now, and one of the contestants was just talking about how she let her daughter name herself...like a day after she was born, she and her husband read their top five names to her and watched to see if she had any reaction to the names...the name that she "chose" was Petra. i'm wondering if maybe the "reaction" that her parents saw was more of disdain than approval...then again, the other choices weren't that great either.

i babysat today. i'm 22. i'm a college graduate, and i babysat. oh well :) i don't really mind...i will say, however, that i was reminded of my dislike of changing diapers.

one more thing - tracy and i are reading the bible chronologically, and i am really enjoying it :)

currently watching/listening to: jeopardy...i really love this show...and i cannot wait for LOST!

finally.

in lieu of my last post, i'd like to second the fact that i still need a job. i would also like to add that i am currently thinking that i would like a job doing event planning/organization and also the marketing/advertising for those events. i decided that tonight on the way home from a dinner with the hospitality team at my church and then some starbucks. i'm sick of people asking me what i want to do and not having anything to say, so now i have something to say. finally. i just hope that what i want is possible. i don't want to work in a job where i'm unhappy just to get experience, but if i have to, then i guess that's my only choice...it's just not my first. well, i guess that's about all for now. tomorrow, i begin the hardcore search...after i watch regis & kelly and take my car in to get "tuned up"...whatever that really means...cars don't play any music, so i'm not sure why you have to tune them, but then again, i don't really know that much about cars, so...there's my plan.

currently listening to: josh groban sing "february song"

i need a job.

enough said.

currently listening to: david cook sing "still haven't found what i'm looking for" and loving it.

what a mighty God we serve.

have you ever thought to yourself, "i am about to die" and really believed it? i hadn't until yesterday when i was stuck in a car and tornado was a mile away. it's basically the weirdest feeling in the world, i think. i couldn't even see the road. it was so dark and stormy. hail was coming down, and limbs and leaves were flying all around me. i know that God was holding me in that moment. God never ceases to amaze me. it's so incredible to me what a powerful God we serve. He's powerful enough to uproot trees and throw trampolines from one yard to the next, but also powerful enough to make sure that our house wasn't damaged at all. i am in awe.

on a lighter note, i am SO glad that david cook is our american idol :) i can't wait for the concert.

currently listening to: fox 5 news talk about a 15-year old middle schooler...

there's no place like home.

so, i've been home now for over a week. it feels so weird...it's just different because i haven't really lived at home in over a year...my days pretty much consist of talking to bekah, watching regis & kelly and days of our lives, cleaning out some stuff and trying to come up with something to do. don't get me wrong, i completely love that i don't have any papers to write or any research to do, but when my parents get home, i feel guilty that i haven't done much all day. the truth is, i just don't have much to do, and there's only so much to do around the house before i run out of stuff.

i'm waiting to hear about a potential job right now, but hopefully i won't have to wait too long, because i'm getting anxious/impatient. what's weird to think about is the fact that once i start working, it won't really stop...it's not just a summer job. welcome to reality :)

well, i missed days yesterday because bekah and i were laying out by the pool, so now i'm watching it on soapnet...is that ridiculous? to be honest, i don't really have anything better to do :) as soon as it's over, though i'm going to shower and then go to chick-fil-a...i basically crave it on tuesdays now. mmmmmm.

tomorrow.

graduation.

one word sums up four years and a multitude of emotions.

currently listening to: whatever is on tv...it was "the soup," but now i'm not sure...

done.

i can't believe that i am done with college. it still hasn't fully sunk in yet...it's beginning to, but it still just feels like finals week to me. it's such a weird feeling. after going to school from august until may for as long as i can remember, it feels strange to know that i won't be starting again in the fall. although it is strange, i can't wait. i am so excited for whatever is next for me. i don't know exactly what it is, but i'm ready for a new adventure.

yesterday we had the COM department dinner, and it was wonderful. diane got it catered by harvest moon - boiled shrimp, potatoes and mexican cornbread. it was delicious. and the brownies were AMAZING. i'm pretty sure they were the best brownies i've ever had...and i've had a lot of brownies :) anyway, after dinner we played some bocce ball, and it was so much fun. i am truly going to miss the people that have all had a part in shaping who i am. i am convinced that i have had the best professors...and they have the cutest kids :)

i'm so ready for summer and for more days like this one - hanging out, watching tv and doing nothing except what i want to do :)

currently listening to: martha stewart talking about some sort of neckroll or something...